So.... after a few months of struggling with my self, I am back.
Whats new in my world? Well there has been quite a bit. Lets see, I am no longer doing Weight Watchers. During my struggle with myself (mentally) I discovered a few things.... I have been blocking my efforts with negative thoughts, allowed my emotions to drive me, and that I needed more.
In June, my last posts, I was looking at binaural beats/alpha brainwave to bypass my subconscious thought patterns to put some positive messages into brain so that I could have a fighting chance. This lead to me discovering a method of weight loss that I am so very happy with. Over the years I have had an issue with different weight loss methods that I have tried, something wasn't right each time.... this feels like a perfect fit.... for everything. Its the Gabriel Method, some may have heard of it. Basically this guy has a great organic approach to eating, simple, some exercise, lots of positive language and visualisations, and a focus coming off the numbers and onto how you are feeling. Sooooo tree hugger, sooo me!
I have also started seeing a counsellor to get to the bottom of why I have held onto my weight... emotionally etc. To see if we can clear up any past issues that I may be really holding onto that I can get rid of. I have also booked myself into a course that will help me clear up any past baggage that I may have.
For the last 3 weeks I have been going to the gym, trying for 3 times a week and feeling great. I do an hour each time and do some cardio and some resistance. I feel sore, but happy. Truly, for the first time in my whole life, I am loving going to the gym. Sure it could be the time out from the kids and domesticity, or the fact that I can have my ipod up really loud and lose myself in my own music... but I think it really is the fact that I feel brilliant that I have been able to set myself challenges and smash through them.
So, back to the long list of to dos for today.... I have already been to the gym so what ever else I achieve today, really is a bonus.
Its great to be back!!!