Loving yourself

I have had this thought in my head for the last few days, well more of a memory of something my mum used to say to me. My mum... she is kind of 'special' in many ways, not many of them helpful to be honest, however a few gems have come my way which I will hold onto. She used to say "If you cant love yourself, dont expect anyone else to". I am not sure I really listened to her at the time, the teenager in me heard nothing helpful as she was talking about my potty mouth.

These word are almost haunting me at the moment. Do I infact love myself? I actually dont think that I do, I know I definitely like some things like my sense of humour (oh yes I even laugh at my own jokes), my ability to care, I like my openness and feeling of freedom that comes from knowing my own mind. But I definitely do not like what I see in the mirror, let alone love it... that, I think will come from hard work physically, emotionally and mentally.

Kim from http://savingmylife-kim.blogspot.com/ signed off a comment to me with "Have a great day and remember to love yourself for exactly where you are. :) " which really hit home that it is one of the pieces of the puzzle that I will need to find to get to my goal, and kind of spooky that she mentioned the thing that I was struggling with over the last few days. Thanks for your kind words though Kim.

I need to write a few post it notes and put them around the house to keep certain things in focus, this will include from a previous post 'If nothing changes, nothing changes' and a few others. Another will be from a song that I randomly started singing to the kids yesterday... 'this little light of mine, I'm going to let it shine', I know its a churchy song, and as some of you know I am not religious, but I love gospel music.. go figure. Anyway, I think for me at the moment the song represents my spirit and the fact that I need to nurture it and allow it to grow and shine. I need to have some faith and belief in me.

I have been taking a few deep breaths and feeling good lately over simple things and just enjoying moments of clarity and beauty. Nature really is glorious and can provide so much that it is impossible to replicate, a beautiful beach, or flower, sun streaming through the clouds, perfect weather, moments of blissful quietness or stillness, amazing sunny perfect days.... all of which make me feel good about life, my life and the fact that it is important to stop and appreciate it all.

Goals for tomorrow... I need to make sure that before I go to lunch with the girls tomorrow I need to have done 1hr of cardio. I feel a Tae Bo session coming on! Try and fit in a half an hour alpha brainwave meditation before the kids get home from daycare.